Rob-world

I’m feeling exploited by many around me.  Most chiefly by Butch and the trust. My perceptions seem so skewed, these days. It’s my  own damn fault.I’m not as keen as I once was.

I’ve ceded away far too much of it, obstensiibly  in regard to my recovery..  I’m done with floundering, and not producing.  I’ve NO reason to think that will change if I keep being so fucking docille.  I need better to remember, I’m NOT a nice person.  I’m fair; to a fault even.  But nice ? It really only gets you walked all over, and people are too ready to yank you around, with no fear of repercussion.   So, no. I was a Hollywood Literary Agent , from 18985 to 1998, give or take.  THAT’S the Robert Drake I need to re member and resume.

I KEEP running into limits in my cognitive capabilities.  Everybody except me seems to think, this is as good it gets for Robert Drake.  Sorry, no.  I’ve still a ways to go yet, cognitively speaking.

Listening to Barry Manilow, sitting in he  dark, , trying to get a handle on evefything I have to do.  I need to start advocating for myself better,  3specially now that I can do so much more for myself with my new Apple Card.  This is a real test of my recovery though.  Hang. On.