Rob-world

I hope my Dad reaches back and remembers all the great ones we had with Mom; I know I will.

But after the grim days I’ve had lately,  that’s saying  a Helluva lot.  When it’s really bad, Grendel helps me level out.A LOT.  So, thank you, Scott  for him. The  new STAR WARS was on sale for a hot minute  in the iTunes store, during my latest  computer fit, so I missed out on that.  FRACK.  (Any BATTLESTAR GALACTICA fans out there feel me?) I still dunno what to do with the rest of my life. The trust is conservative,  which I guess is as it should be, but I will  admit that a lot of  my suicidal impulses & talk bubbles up when other people  present themselves as  knowing some illicit news about the trust and  it’s use;I should trust my Trustees more and have a  more conscious faith in my knowledge my Trustees don’t talk out of school to anyone about  my  money, but it’s SO DAMN HARD, WHEN YOU’RE HEARING IDLE CHATTER.

My own, primarily.  I’m waiting until Grendel and  my dad go,  then I’m out. See, Butch has been telling me for years now I’m  getting  worse,  and I guess  he’s right. I keep fucking up my  Mac. The Trust, at Butch’s behest not  mine, keeps taking it to Bundy’s  for repairs.    I’ve  been trying to get the Trust to let me buy a  copy  of DiscWarrior,  for, oh, 3 years now. which is what Bundy’s uses,  at least initially, for  repair. but I have never been  able to save up the $119.95 it costs, and I guess Butch and the Trust would rather keep enriching Bundy’s coffers; maybe they get kickback; I doubt  it, but  I’m hurting like a motherfucker right now. I didn’t sign up for this.  If I’m truly getting worse,  and my recovery  has worse than stalled,it’s sunk, like Butch keeps saying,then I’m  checking  out when Grendel dies.

  My own, primarily.  I’m waiting until Grendel and  my dad go,  then I’m out. See, Butch has been telling me for years now I’m  getting  worse,  and I guess  he’s right. I keep fucking up my  Mac. The Trust, at Butch’s behest not  mine, keeps taking it to Bundy’a  for repairs.    I’ve  been trying to get the Trust to let me buy a  copy  of DiscWarrior,  for, oh, 3 years now. http://www.alsoft.com/DiskWarrior/ which is what Bundy’s uses,  at least initially, for  repair. but I have never been  able to save up the $119.95 it costs, and I guess Butch and the Trust would rather keep enriching Bundy’s coffers; maybe they get kickback; I doubt  it, but  I’m hurting like a motherfucker right now. I didn’t sign up for this.  If I’m truly getting worse,  and my recovery  has worse than stalled,it’s sunKK, like Butch keeps saying,then I’m  checking  out when Grendel dies.