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I've been thinking about suicide a lot, Facebook draft

My own, primarily.  I’m waiting until Grendel and  my dad go,  then I’m out. See, Butch has been telling me for years now I’m  getting  worse,  and I guess  he’s right.
I keep fucking up my  Mac. The Trust, at Butch’s behest not  mine, keeps taking it to Bundy’s  for repairs.    I’ve  been trying to get the Trust to let me buy a  copy  of DiscWarrior,  for, oh, 3 years now.
which is what Bundy’s uses,  at least initially, for  repair. but I have never been  able to save up the $119.95 it costs, and I guess Butch and the Trust would rather keep enriching Bundy’s coffers; maybe they get kickback; I doubt  it, but  I’m hurting like a motherfucker right now.
I didn’t sign up for this.  If I’m truly getting worse,  and my recovery  has worse than stalled,it’s sunk, like Butch keeps saying,then I’m  checking  out when Grendel dies.

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