I'm really disturbed by the way the trust seems to say, all the time now:

I'm really disturbed by the way the trust seems to say, all the time now: YOU’LL RECOVER ONLY THIS FAR , AT THIS RATE.  Any attempts to color outside the lines, or faster, will be met with every impediment possible.

I’m of tired of having to badger, or gameplay my Trustees to get fair use of my money for reasons why the trust was created in the first place:  to enhance, and ensure, my recovery from the incidents of 1/31/99.  THE Trust doesn’t seek to serve my  ADVANCING recovery;  it instead seeks to serve only its own existence.  This trip to Montreal is a perfect example.  No one has asked me what shows I want to see, or events I care to take in. Not once,  This  is why I need an Apple credit Card people.  It will allow me more independence, and  not tie me to Butch, or make me cash-dependent on the Trust,  It’ll work with all my stuff.  

 Meanwhile,  let’s go on living a purposeless life;  where I don’t write because I’m Always so depressed.  You know, I once was a great guy, with a future full of promise.   Now?  NOT.