I need to get control of my life; Dear Gil

I'm writing to you, directly, because this has been on my mind for a long time. I'm fucking miserable. and have been for a long time. I wanna move to the St. James because it was designed by an architect in a wheelchair, so EVERYTHING takes that into consideration. It also has a pool with a wheelchair lift in it. The only residential one in the area, outside of a rehab setting. I need to do some cardio; despite 2 trainers, I get and have gotten no or minimal cardio for over a decade, & the St. James was designed by an architect in a wheelchair so EVERYTHING takes that into consideration. The interior of the units too. I have made my peace, quite happily, with living in Philadelphia, even to the point of buying a funeral plot from my Quaker Meeting. I need to get over my reticence of talking to Peter. It is all of my own fabrication. I hope to buy Giovanni's Room, too; because I could get for a song and because, it is a recognized national landmark who should not be allowed to die. I would try and get a Pew Fellowship to help defray the costs of making it fully accessible. Since reading is increasingly a digital medium. bookstores have to do more in the production of, not just solely the sale, of books. I would like to publish, on-line, an anthology of queer, Philly writers. Turn G.R. INTO A vital source for the proaction and consumption of queer literature. Gil, this is what I do. Or can do, if the trust allows me. This would be a HUGE help to me, in terms of self-esteem and life purpose too. I'm sure you have questions; fire away.